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I think there is a dark side to every industry but I don't think it is something to get people to worry about.
You know, I felt like an outsider before that. It started in high school.
What happened was I hit my 30s and all of a sudden I was not spending so much time thinking about my weight, because there were too many other things going on.
It wasn't just that I wasn't getting offered scripts; I couldn't even get an audition for a film.
I've gotten beyond my problems with my weight, beyond my fixation with weight and now all of a sudden everyone is talking about my weight!
I've been around and have been trying hard to manage both work and home.
Hollywood is the definition of sexual discrimination.
The Interrogation of Michael Crowe is a true-life story and a movie with a mission. A mission to get people to know of the horror the Crowe family faced and how the same thing could happen to anyone.
No honestly! this industry can take a long time to accept you into the system.
But ironically, around the time of Breakfast Club and St. Elmo's Fire, I felt like I had all these great friends.
I was a newcomer and I met with the regular resistance. After some time though, everything fell in place.
I'd rather not pinpoint my mistakes.
Well, I was a part of the American Ballet Theatre from the time I was about seven years old, and the minute I first stepped onstage at Lincoln Center I felt at home.
I was part of this group of really cool people who came from all over the place and we had so much in common and I really adored Demi.
I don't have time to obsess about my weight, because now I'm obsessing about my kid.
The pursuit of fame becomes your career, and you have to spend all your time trying to look good.
If there is a dark side of the industry that fans are not aware of, I think it better continue to stay that way!
I think that acting involves doing your job so well that you are able to help the viewer identify with the character.
My experiences have taught me a lot and I'm happy with my learning's, if not with what I went through to learn.
They said I should get my teeth straightened, and it wouldn't hurt if I got my boobs done; it would be good if I showed up at this party or that party, if I dated this person or that person.
I have the desire to work as an actress, but I have no ambition to be a star.
She knew I was in trouble and she helped organize an intervention for me.
I went nuts. I felt like my body was conquering me and my will and I couldn't command it into a different shape.
I was reading about Mary Ellen Mark and Diane Arbus while I was making the film, especially Arbus.
I was so pissed, not because of the actual article, which I never read, but because I felt like, finally I really fit in and I have all these friends - and then bang, it was over.
I thought it would be a challenge to portray what the Crowe's went through.
It started with having to slop on all this makeup to get my picture taken, and having to walk around all day looking like I was some hot thing.
I'm very happy with the work that I do, and I have a lot of time for my daughter, and really, I don't want to be a superstar because it takes a great deal of effort to maintain that kind of life once you've created it.
I got so many conflicting messages from this industry.
I did go out and change my hair color and put on makeup.
I was happy that they liked my work and I finally got the acclaim and recognition that I thought I deserved.
I never thought to myself, I'm going to grow up and fall in love with a man or I'm going to fall in love with a woman because my mother is a lesbian.
I think that's because a woman is able to dominate the film most often in an independent film.
It immediately started this terrible association with us, that we were these kids who had too much too fast. There was really bad fallout from it, and everybody just split off.
When you're an actress you're supposed to be playing real people, and real people come in all shapes and sizes, so that made me really angry.
But as soon as I hit puberty and my body started changing, I was really not in the running anymore to be a professional ballerina.
I sternly believe however that the juvenile justice system should be more careful when interrogating.
I just feel like with guys, the woman is the accessory.
It was probably bulimia because it would be these binges followed by these long starvation diets.
At the end of the day the audience knows that it is... after all... acting.
High Art was probably the first audition I had for a movie in about two years.
I think everybody has the ability to fall in love with a man or with a woman or a white person or a black person or a Jewish person or a Protestant person or whatever.
Then that article calling us the Brat Pack came out in New York magazine and that was the end of it.
I'm admitting my cultural illiteracy here, but I didn't even know who Nan Goldin was.
Since it was definitely not something I would want to happen in real life, I thought enacting it and making the unfortunate incident known to the world would be a better bet.
But the fact is, nobody gets off drugs unless they really want to, and I really wanted to.
Instead of getting breast implants and spending four hours a day with a trainer, I spent four hours a day with Harold.
I think our fans just need to continue to provide support to the actors who only get motivated by the love from the fans.
I was supposed to do to make myself into a movie star. Part of that is because it went against my ethics, and part of it was I realized at a certain point that being a movie star isn't what.
See, if you look at mainstream films it is the usual set of characters who need to be there.
I have regretted a lot of things I've done in life but then should they not have happened.
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